working out and working through

"You choose to use the broken and abused/soft spoken misfit to open your good news" - Sintax.the.terrific "Broke toys (an anti-intro)"

Recently I have been thinking on, and being convicted about really working out my theology. And of course by my theology, I do mean the Gospel. As I continue to explore what it means for me to work out my salvation, I am also continuing to work through what the Gospel is.
Before you get your freak on, let me expain. I don't mean that I don't know the Gospel, what I mean is I desire to present the clearest picture of the Cross, of Jesus, that His Grace will allow me. No "being a Christian means you don't do yaddi yadda" but more so "We are broken, and this is what His Cross does" type of thing. I guess what I'm really trying to say is, I desire to figure out what parts of Christianity is life-giving Gospel, and what parts are life-taking religion, what parts I can and should question, and what parts I need to, without a doubt, believe.
Then as I go along, I want to figure out how the Holy Spirit calls me to live that out. Figure out what areas of society I should dip my hand into. Clearly that doesn't necessarily mean what I want to do, but rather, where Jesus can press me the most, where He can in the process of sanctifying me, make me effective.
One thing I do desire though is to be in a place that will not, by His Grace, allow my heart to harden. I want to tell especially those, that are a broken, bent and messed up, that the Cross gives you freedom from sin that is habitual and generational. I want to tell them that the Cross restores the rhythmic relationship with a God who is Merciful, Just and Beautiful. A relationship that at our deepest level our soul remembers and longs for. I want to tell them that because of the Cross, the failings of generations will not be passed down to the ones we have. I want to tell them that the Cross is far more brutal, violent, vicious and bloody than we could ever imagine, but more beautiful, saving, restoring, freeing, life-giving then we ever deserved.
I want to tell them that outside a deep, joy giving relationship with Jesus we maybe breathing but we aren't alive. I want to tell them that only Jesus can satisfy us fully and anything else is like chasing the wind.

I guess I'll end like I began, with lyrics that strike a chord with I have been working on and praising Jesus for:
"I say grace, what a wonderful thing/ cold blooded lowlife to the son of a King/ a fresh tune hummin now with somethin to sing/work it out every day and throw my tongue in the ring" - Mars ill "Chains gon' break"

Hansen